Hard
I haven't written in a long time. I was hoping this post would be to announce the news of our third baby to all, but it isn't. Some of you know, but some of you don't. That has been the hardest thing about this miscarriage.....telling people that KNEW I was pregnant. Eight weeks into the pregnancy I had an ultrasound that showed us an empty sac (blighted ovum) and a healthy pregnancy. Heartbeat and all. (I believe I miscarried the first baby around 6.5 weeks.) Then I went back a week later, but there was no heartbeat this time. I am so glad that Lincoln was there with me. He was actually planning a trip to Idaho, for a visit with his Dad, and a bow convention. He couldn't work out his flight plan, because of his work schedule and thankfully was home.
The kids didn't know I was expecting. It has been hard to not cry in front of them, but I have managed to sneak away when needed.
I have been blessed to have wonderful friends here is Maryland. Christie took my kids ALL day on Friday, Sara had them on Thursday, and we have been fed. I prayed that I wouldn't miscarry, because I couldn't handle it. Truthfully *I* haven't had to handle this. My husband, friends, and family have helped me bear this weight.
I am sorry if you found out this news from this blog. I am having a hard time calling people to share the bad news. =(
The kids didn't know I was expecting. It has been hard to not cry in front of them, but I have managed to sneak away when needed.
I have been blessed to have wonderful friends here is Maryland. Christie took my kids ALL day on Friday, Sara had them on Thursday, and we have been fed. I prayed that I wouldn't miscarry, because I couldn't handle it. Truthfully *I* haven't had to handle this. My husband, friends, and family have helped me bear this weight.
I am sorry if you found out this news from this blog. I am having a hard time calling people to share the bad news. =(
posted by Jeri at 5:41 AM
6 Comments:
I am glad to hear lots of people have been helping you. I was worried that no one would "compassionate servicize" you since you are so great at doing that for others.
I hope your procedure went well. You are amazing and wonderful and I wish you love and luck in dealing with this.
jeri! i'm so sorry! i had no idea. i had a miscarriage between calvin and jared and i completely sympathize with your situation. it's so hard, harder than i'd imagined before i went through it myself. it really felt like i'd lost a child, even though i was only 7 weeks along. i had to go through the whole grieving process. i wish i had some advice to offer to help make it easier for you, but i don't. do give me a call if you feel like you want to talk, ok?
I just read this today Jeri. I don't have anything helpful to say except that I love you and I'm really sorry. I am always willing to talk or help out if you need it. Please call me.
I am so sorry, Jeri. That is the saddest of news. I pray for your comfort.
so sad to read this, jeri. i miscarried my first baby and was totally devastated. you are not alone. i made the mistake of keeping a lot of it to myself. i'm so glad you have support and people to talk to.
I am so sorry Jeri. It is such a hard thing to talk about, but I hope in sharing it with others you can truly see you're not alone. I'm here - even if its tomorrow or in 2 months or a year from now that you'd like to talk to someone about it.
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